a wallpost from a person who I have heard and seen but never met, breaks my heart. She lost her husband and had a child a month or two after his death. Reading through all her thoughts break my heart and cry for her. When I was reading through her post the one thing that she uses the most was that she can never sleep after her husband death. It made me realize that we take things for granted and never apreciate it until we lost it. Just like my grandmother death, I literally broke down and cry and gave up on everything. I thought to myself why are they gone when they were so strong and brave. I hope that everything will get better in the future for us and everything. I really miss the past alot, Im learning alot of things and regreted alot of things i done in the past and Im ready to start over again.

I don’t care what you say. Even when you threatened me or say that I’m a bitch. Cause you were NEVER there for me from the start, just cause you were there for the previous years doesn’t mean you can just reappear. Like you understand about me, you don’t even know me, you think you can just go and come back? yeah right, your just a douchebag from the start. Don’t think your a top dog in the house. Go fuck your self and never show your face to me at all. I’m better without you in my life.

I smiled, looked into your eyes, and told you that you and her make a great couple. Even though my heart made me jumped but at the same time I was really glad I did that, cause it made me realized that I’m happily over you.”

 I learned it’s easier to be single than in a relationship. Without fighting,planning, and make lovey dovey things. It feels soo good to have freedom again.